Thursday, April 10, 2008

Check it out

What little most of us know about mental illness, we probably picked up from watching TV or from the movies. Unfortunately, these impressions are usually pretty ridiculous - the mentally ill are portrayed as dangerous killers or laughable buffoons. Let's face it, few people bone up on the subject until it intrudes into our lives; but intrude it does. Everyone knows someone with a brain disorder. The quiet coworker, the eccentric aunt, the lifelong friend who has suddenly changed in some subtle way - mental illness is a fact of modern life that is kept in the attic away from public discussion. This needs to change.

But where do you start to look for real information? Trust me that a Google search on "mental health" is going to leave anyone pretty overwhelmed. Bipolar? Depression? Anxiety? We who live with brain disorder know that a diagnosis is not usually a simple thing. You may know that something is wrong, but what specifically? Look at NIMH? or NAMI? Heavens, there are a lot of initials and most of it looks pretty technical and confusing and you have to know what you're looking for.

Here is a site for that first search. Refreshingly simple and in human language, not medical-ise, it's aimed at folks 18-25 (most common age of onset) and includes a state by state search engine for mental health services, an overview of common disorders and real life testimonials of people living with these problems. "What a difference a friend makes?" You bet. Check it out...

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Away from the Sun

The dark times come and the dark times go. I try to stay upbeat. But you know there's not much looking good out there - and sometimes it's so dark inside, I don't know if I can keep breathing. So I'm on the treadmill (physical activity is supposed to help. Right.) And this song comes on the old ipod, and I realize I'm not the only one who feels alone in the dark... Away from the Sun by 3 Doors Down.

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

Oh no...
Yeah...
I'm gone

So a song connects me back to the world. For now. How about you?